I’ve stopped working out and started eating junk. I havent been proud of myself for a while now, I miss that feeling..

Now I realize that it’s A LOT more satisfying to feel in control rather than feeling free to eat everything and anything. I dont think I enjoy the junk food as much anymore, now that I know how bad it is for my body.

I need to feel in control again, and that’s me doing the first step towards it!

When it seems like Ive been standing in the same spot for the past 2 months and that I will never reach my UGL without starving myself Im starting to lose hope.

What is the point in doing it all if I never reach my goal?

I may be at my lowest weight so far, but it’s not even close to how I want to look or weigh.

Ugh. So frustrated.

So much for my morning run plans :(

First thing tomorrow morning. If I’d go for a run now there’s no way I will fall asleep tonight!
Is that some sort of a Murphy law?

Today is about making it all better. 

Anonymous asked: hello there, i had posted before about how much i love your trumblr and it is still true! I was just wondering, you talk alot about binging, just wondering what exactly that is, and if you get any results from it? thank you have a great day!

Thank you <3

Binging is not a good thing, it’s a breakdown. You just eat too much, and then eat some more and it’s pretty impossible to stop. Then you usually beat yourself up for eating all that food and not stopping when you should have. Sometimes by binging though you give your metabolism a boost which may make you lose weight eventually, but usually it’s a bad thing for your diet.

There is this diet that lets you have a cheat day (eating whatever you want, as much as you want) as long as you eat clean for the rest of the week. It’s a controlled binge which takes the benifits of a binge (boosting up your metabolism, letting you eat whatever you want without feeling guilty) and puts them to good use. I think that that’s what Im going to do once I reach my goal weight as some sort of a lifestyle. ;)

After yesterdays binge I got up on the scale and actually lost 0.4 kg (0.8lbs).

It’s been a week since I’ve stopped doing the Insanity workout. Could this weight loss be my muscles shrinking?

I can’t help but be skeptical of this weight change. It’s too good to be true- something must be wrong.

I mean, come on- it makes me feel bad, it makes me feel weak and out of control, so why do I keep doing it? Really, what’s the point?

And each and every time I go through that phase- ~You shouldnt eat it, you know.. Yeah I know, but I’ve been so good, why cant I at least have a tsp? Just for the sake of tating it! It wont hurt you!~ And once it’s in my mouth it’s nearly impossible to stop.

Im driving myself mad :( What am I doing? The moment I start seing results again I find myself ruining everything again!

COME ON, IM STRONGER THAN THIS!

So mad at myself right now.

Damn you, Nutella.